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Posted by captainlemonberry | Posted in | Posted on 7:01 PM

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There's no way I'm saying it, I really don't love you
There's no point in faking it, I just wanna get above you
I could tell you that you're the greatest, the best I ever had
Write love songs and deep poems, and confessions to you about
How insanely mad I am, in the head, of course,
But I wouldn't tell ya that, that'd be bad, and probably ruin the sexual intercourse
And all our haves and have hads would just be memories that wouldn't last
I couldn't do that, not to you, not yet
The water's still very warm, and I wanna dive in and swim
Skim the bottom, fishing out skeletons of all my dead reasons
Past relationships, and broken promises, and you wouldn't like that
Now would you?
Okay, alright, I'm being a bit melodramatic here
Could you sit down and hold back those tears while I try to make my intentions clear?
You see, I'm not looking for someone to get me, to try and understand me
Go ahead, have fun with that, but you'll never see the real me
I don't fucking put my emotions out on display, leaving you discombobulated while you sit in disarray
I'm not sorry, and no, that's not a game I play, because you can shove your sympathy up your ass if think you wanna set me straight, or get me out
Or whatever the hell you saviors do, trying to help people you don't know
Ah shit, please don't cry, seriously, are you even gonna try? Look, just think about it, I could've lied...I could've lied...
I'm not this great person that you've been led to believe
You think I'm some sort of romantic who wears their fucking heart on their sleeve
And it's violent, baby, it's a violent world, not rainbows and sunshine
But hey, kid, you're a dime, if fucking you is some kinda crime,
I'd pay the price, cause you help me kill some time
That probably sounds really, really bad...but, it's the truth, I mean, it's what you asked for
I know you...didn't ask for this, any of this
To be honest, you're really great, kid
You know, they told me the same thing they told you...you know, you got potential
But uhh...some of us are uhh...a bit different
So don't take this shit personally, okay? Someone's out there waiting to be loved,
And you've got what they want, and maybe that'd be a good start for you...
And thirty years from now, when you're married or somethin',
Remember whatever this was...whatever we had...
And just know that when I said I didn't love you,
I lied,
For your own good.

fone convos.

Posted by captainlemonberry | Posted in , , , | Posted on 7:55 PM

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w/Killian (boyfriend) that were never deleted because my fone doesn't notify me
when it gets really full.
I picked the cute/weird parts of convos.

6/26
Emily: I love you, my little steamed dumpling. :3
Killian: I love you too baby! That was random and cute :)

Emily: You're crazy...for me!!! :D
Killian: Maybe a little...
Emily: LOL! Only a little? Ouchhhh!
Killian: Ouch! I said maybe! Maybe a lot...
Emily: Maybe a lot? Yay! Better than maybe a little!
Killian: Maybe lol
Emily: I love you too, haha.
Killian: ? I love you..?
Emily: Lol, of course you do, silly!
Killian: What else would I do?

Emily: Signatures are lame, lol.
Killian: ... That was random.
Emily: There we go! signature!

//pseudoserenity
Killian: Thought you didn't want one?
Emily: I think they're annoying so I made one xD

//pseudo serenity

Killian: You should kill your signature lol
Emily: I just did lol
Killian: Nice! Great minds think alike

Killian: I don't think I ever told you, but you're a great writer
Emily: what!?
Killian: Yeah, your letter and all that you wrote
in your book, you write really well
Emily: what!?!?!?
Killian: What what?
Emily: You mean it?
Killian: Why wouldn't I?
Emily: I...I'm shocked.
Killian: Why?
Emily: Just...I don't know.
Killian: What Emily? It's true, I was just letting you know..
Emily: It's not bad at all...I'm just happy.
Killian: You have an odd way of showing it lol

6/27
Killian: I really like the bracelet.
Emily: Really!? I thought you'd hate it...
I'm glad you like it =)
Killian: Honestly...when you said what it was, I thought I
wouldn't like it, and I thought I wouldn't wear it other
than with you...but! I do like it, and I've got it on
sittin here with andy lol

Killian: We're crazy lol
Emily: lol, why do you say that?
Killian: We go through all these odd mood swings and stuff lol
Emily: Yeah, I've noticed, but we always drift back, which is nice
Killian: Well, it's never a big drift, and I couldn't let you go anyways :)
Emily: Haha, really now? You wouldn't have to; I don't
plan on going anywhere =) Damn. We really are weird...
Killian: Well that's good, cuz I don't think I would like
it very much if you weren't around. Yeah we are! I like it :)
Emily: Lol! I like it myself as well! I've never really done
that with anyone. And I wouldn't like it very 
much if you weren't around.
Killian: I haven't either lol. It's pretty awesome if I
say so myself. Good, because I don't plan on going anywhere myself :)
Emily: I guess we're gonna have to put up w/each other for a long time. :3
Killian: It's not much of putting up with as much as it is enjoin it :p

Emily: Do you honestly think I look slutty with a monroe? Be honest.
Killian: No, I don't. Like I said, it usually does, but it
doesn't. I don't really like it, but it's your stuff, and I can deal lol

Killian: ...
Emily: ...
Killian: Okay..
Emily: Well this is weird.
Killian: How?
Emily: I dunno o__o
Killian: Oh.. Sorry
Emily: For what?
Killian: All of this
Emily: All of what...?

Emily: Has anyone told you you're spectacular?
Killian: Maybe some crazy little Asian girl.. Whom 
I just happen to love!
Emily: Hah! I wonder if I know her.
Killian: I dunno.. You two are like.. Complete opposites

Killian: I figured if you like em, they're good lol
Emily: Lol I'll take that as a compliment
Killian: Well, you usually have a good taste with music

Emily: Grr, I still want venoms...
Killian: I don't think I could stand you getting one XD
Emily: You and your urges! lol

6/28
Emily: I love you too...please don't leave me.
Killian: Why would I leave you baby?
Emily: I...don't know.
Killian: ...do you seriously think I would leave you? 
You should know...I wouldn't, I love you too much.. 
You should know that Emily..

6/29
Emily: It kind of just...hit me, and we don't need all these petty 
tension-filled conversations, so I'm uppin' my game, haha. 
So, it was an awakening.
Killian: Well that's good.. I'm sorry that I don't help those 
situations. So I'll step up too :)
Emily: Haha! Yay! We're actually making an effort! 
-dances w/a party cone on my head-
Killian: Nice cone lol.
Emily: Thanks, I made it myself ;)

Emily: Don't ellipses me w/your ...s! Lol xD
Killian: Why not?
Emily: Cause!
Killian: Cause why?
Emily: Cause!
Killian: But.. But.. Why?
Emily: Cause! xD, lol goooodness, I love you!
Killian: I love you too! What a coincidence!

6/30
Emily: I wanna see splice ;p
Killian: I heard it was really really bad
Emily: Lol me too, that it wasn't as interesting as it seemed
Killian: Yeah, so why do you still wanna see it?
Emily: To see how bad it is xD

Emily: Makes sense-ical. :) besides, we have each other.
Killian: Which is more than enough
Emily: Ohhh yeahh ;) but really, you're all I need.
Killian: And you're more than I need.

Killian: I love you too much
Emily: Too much?
Killian: Yep. Cuz it can't suck this much to have a 
person you love just enough that faraway.

Emily: I'm glad you do, makes my world spin.
Killian: Really? How does that work?
Emily: It...moves in a weird clockwise motion situation. xD
Killian: I'm glad for your loss
Emily: I'm glad you've lost the game
Killian: But I haven't
Emily: But I seen a rainbow yestuhday!
Killian: So? I still no has a sammich
Emily: A cold glass of sarcasm comin' right up. 
Would you like a hot, steamy bowl of Carlos while you're at it?
Killian: Just for me? How sweet! I'd rather not...
Emily: I think you killed Kenny, which can only mean we're 
not in Kansas anymore. Dammit! It's so fucking sunny in Philadelphia! -melts-
Killian: That's not tasti either
Emily: I'm just randomly quoting things. BUT there's no 
gold at the end of the rainbow. Goooodbye horses.
Killian: Hahaha you're too much babe
Emily: Lol, I know, too much, too little, too late. If I rearrange my room,
we can take these cookies out of the oven two minutes early.

Emily: Shaken not stirred, Watson. xD
Killian: What?

7/1
Killian: I feel...I feel like I've been given something I don't deserve. 
That for once, I have someone I can depend on, and someone that I know 
will always love me too, no matter what. And I don't think I could live without you.
Emily: Really? Why do you think so?
Killian: Because nothing else could ever make me this happy

Emily: I...I'm crazy...I am fucking out of my goddamn 
mind crazy for...you...like...
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